Hi, if you see this then know I'm doing better than before. I came out as transgender to myself and have been so much happier because of my decision to accept myself.
I started this blog when I was underaged and should not have been chased by so many sick straight men and it's terrible thinking I was a sexual exploited minor. I had a choice though and many more haven't. Just to add perspective, my trans cousin he's the survivor of child trafficking in Utah, Navad, New York and other states. He is a out spoken advocate for survivors and I'm happy he is here in the world being community builder.
I said I was 16 and now I'm enjoying 35 years and it's been for me now one year and 290 days since I started my HRT journey. I'm so god damn happy I finally started. I wish I had run away, made friends, and started HRT as collage student but I didn't.
I was in denial so damned much I came out as genderqueer in 2018 and didn't admit to myself I was trans till late 2020 or eairl 2021. But I was already 27-29 and had been making transgender and crossdressing stories for two decades. I was scared of being wrong. The fears of not being transgender should have been the most absolute obvious signal for me. Cis people don't fear not being transgender.
Wow, so I'm kinda dumb but I'm actually scared of my life and new I couldn't have the family I loved and be trans. I have siblings, parents, grandparents aunts, uncles cousins, and more grand cousins every few years. They are all "born again", "evangelical", "non-denominational", "bible believing" Christians. They refuse to use my name or my gender pronouns and they have all the other religious problems. I wish I could say I expect them to get better with time but that's unlikely. I have been no contact now for a few months. They don't care enough about me to hear me, or treat me with as much dignity as they would a stranger at work or a dog.
My life life has been fun. I enjoy myself a little bit more each day but I came back to this blog to chronical my experience. I don't think this means I'm going to make content like I used to do. Thought I do believe I will revive this space and see what happens.
Happy pride month to my family in queer. LGBTQIA2S+ are welcome and encouraged to help me make a community of faith in our family's future and future happiness.